Blah-Yuck!

Some things just don't change.  I can remember being in certain situations when I was in grade school and high school and college and thinking to myself that one day I won't have to deal with this.  This kind of thing only happens now--that is what I would say to myself.  When I am older, these things won't happen.  When I am a grown-up or a mom or a wife or have a job or am just not in school, this kind of thing won't happen.  When I was single, I would think, these things won't happen when I'm married.  When we didn't have kids, I would think, these things won't happen when I'm a mom.  Now I am a mom and I am finding myself trying to find out how to help Kathryn.  I am not being a good example to her because I am still having trouble with the same thing.  Why can't I just grow up?  or not be hurt? or not be offended? or not take it personally?  Is it just always going to be like this?  Why can't I get over this hump in my journey in life?  Kathryn is just starting to see the same hump.  I am not trying to pretend it isn't there anymore. I'm just telling her that it is real and it hurts and honestly, that hurt doesn't change even as you get older, but we can try hard not to cause this kind of hurt in others.  We hope for the best for them.  We pray for them.  We rejoice for them.  We think the best of them and for them.  We are happy for them.  We celebrate.  We assume the best.  We try really hard to not put words in their mouth.  We pray.  We give it to God, and then see that we have taken it back, and then give it back to Him again.  We pray that God will help us to do all those things that we know we should do and feel those things we know we should feel.  It is always a pride problem--good or bad--it is a sin thing.  Blah--yuck!